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The struggle of coming to know this truth is eternal– You know, I am only going to deepen my heart from this angle; deepen the fact that I have to face who I am; but it is like forever virgin, no matter how much it deepens– Eons from now, I will still be coming to grips with who I am; but I will enjoy every bit of it, or every bit of it would be such a meaningful choice that I would never had made another–

Even when I reach the sort of; what could be translated; as full conditional self; I will still look at that full conditional self, with the awe as I have just come upon it; and deepen that awe, both in the direction of just coming upon it, and of always having had it–

And then I will struggle with you, about who you are to me; And in this you struggle with who you are, and what I am to you–

But it won’t be a struggle; it will be archetypal expressions of our heart of hearts, experienced in a polished way; a way that communicates what is between us, and allows us to experience exactly what we would truly want to between each other, except it will be that beauty that is just beyond the choice you could imagine you would choose; just beyond your grasp in your ability to think of it, and yet made of everything you have known to think of; an order just beyond your ability to imagine as possible– Just behind the veil; just enough to feel like its everything you have dreamed of, but twisted in such a magnificent way to accept it as a reality, and not just what you desire–

That is, I do not offer what you desire of me; I offer, a response to your desires; and in a response to your desires, do you see a clear language in your heart– a language that tilts and whirls; in the way I speak to your desires, which are done so clear cut and defined; that there is no question that the entire experience is speaking to you, because not only do you clearly see my response; but you see it pointed at the veins of your heart; that you can KNOW your heart in the environment and understand the way to move around that heart by the way I point to it–

So I have talked about the root/crown merging; let us call it like a royal seal– The royal seal is the pattern of your heart made clear– That is, within this sphere; everything is changing, and yet something remains clear– And, in all those things changing that you do not know, simply makes clearer the heart that you do know– A fractal recursion of self similarity, not in form but in the spirit that governs the form–

The striking dark lines, are what we have made clear in ourselves; as these lines fade into the continual changing of things, they slowly illuminate this changing bringing more of it into the striking markers of our heart–

So. lets say these striking dark lines also represent; the highest quality form of your heart– That is, out of all the choices possible in this changing arena, the royal seal is made of those choices in your heart to be made in its clearest manner possible– That is, we see all possibilities from our relationship with the whole; but those that come into focus, those that come into true manifestation, are the ones that line up with our whole being in desire–
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However, there is something that dances on the edge of the seal; something that dances underneath the awareness of the heart; and that is all the possibilities that are NOT something you would choose for yourself– The possibilities that do not reflect the heart, that are still there in the darkness of our being (that infinite heart)–

I call this the razors edge; because between those very things that allow us to experience our heart so clearly, are those things that give our heart clarity, which is the shadow of our being–

It is almost like a claw upon our being; to see, how very easily our experience of the heart; could be so radically different, and so deeply impaired; That is to say, we remain aware of the fact that, everything is moving according to our heart; but at the same time, we see how easily that need not be the case, and see more clearly how glad we are that such is the case–

To expound more deeply on the nature of this state; in relation to what we could call royalty over intimacy; or royal intimacy–

Royal intimacy Is as follows
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This shape, represents the crown; now the true manner is much more elaborate and ornate; but that this represents, choices reflected the choices taking place on each end– That is, when you come upon royalty, there is a beauty that you behold; in the sense you accept in yourself, and such it moves you– But in that movement, is how you accept the beauty; forced to play out your heart to some degree– You see, it is your very response to this beauty, that causes you to move as if it is your own will, but also an extension of what you are seeing; you know, natural movements–

What I mean is when you come across this, your very own choices almost feel like they aren’t even your own because this beauty clearly guides you and always has guided you– and yet deeper in the heart you become because you feel your choices so much more clearly–

Then, there is something beautiful; this beauty offers you a choice; What do I mean by that? I mean, you are shown your own beauty.. You are shown a part of how you fit into the scheme of all things; and when you make a choice on this level; that choice breaks up into clarity of all your other choices in your own intimate affairs of your living destiny–

However, intimacy; on the “mundane level” after this; is much like the same thing.. Seeing who you are to others more clearly, and allows them to find themselves deeper in you–

This kind of love is a conduit; a circuit– To experience love for ourselves, through others– Our own power, found not in the form of it; but in the meaning of it to us; that gives us such great reason for our power; like within that power, the very thing that carries our heart–
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Not everyone needs to know this so deeply; everyone needs to be truly touched by it, but those that find themselves in such positions are themselves like a fountains who feed other fountains who feed other fountains; the quantities between us, in-measurable– However, in-quantifiable, fully tangible and undeniable– The fountains, who are deeper within this; do pour forth greater currents to all those places that do not touch it so deeply, bringing it greater riches–

It should be said that, those that do not trudge deeper into this; are very much experiencing the the very things we wish to experience so deeply; not separate from such a kingdom, and very much in accord with the totality of it– It is not a lowly place.. In some ways it itself is a grand fountain bringing more into the center of perfection so to speak–

The beauty in yourself is where you clearly move others–